I haven't been able to write as much as I've wanted lately, though I will report that I have doctors appointments tomorrow, which will allow me to give you some more updated information on Lyme testing for infants (I got our test kit in the mail!), as well as an LLMD's advice on what to do when you're in so much pain that all you can do is lie on the couch and cry.
Sadly, that's been my life for the past week, as symptoms have flared up to an excruciating level (dead arms and legs, clawed hands, and the lovely sensation of a very strong electrical current running from head to toe. It doesn't quit.
My fatigue is indescribable, and all I can think is, "For the love of God, please C-section me and get this baby out because there is no way I will have the strength to get through labor. At least not when I can barely move half of my body and I'm twitching uncontrollably. In my perfect world, Wyatt comes early, and the second he lets out that first amazing cry, I start popping a wide assortment of stronger (less expensive) antibiotics.
I am usually one to take a positive, optimistic approach, but I'm afraid I have nothing good to offer today. This just plain sucks.
The somewhat good news is that there's less than five weeks until my due date, if I make it that long (I swear, I am going in there tomorrow begging for early induction or C-section).
My fingers are crossed for a miraculous recovery of sorts--you know how crazy Lyme can be--you want to keel over and die one minute, and then the next day symptoms can lessen for no reason.
Actual info with less complaining coming to you soon.
I just stumbled across your blog because I'm doing much better after a long road w/Lyme, babesia, bartonella and mycoplasma and considering trying to get pregnant sometime in 2011. It's a hard decision for me, two years antibiotics helped but I still had severe symtpoms. I have had great success with Rife (my last resort!), although I obviously wouldn't use it when pregnant.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are having a rough time of it...I've had many days laying in bed half-paralyzed, in severe pain, buzzing and twitching. It is amazing how the body can recover...just focus your mind on that beautiful baby. You will get through this difficult time. *Hugs*
Ugh, I just lost the comment I wrote to you. I'll try again. I'm so sorry to hear all this Sara -- it really sounds miserable and I'm sure this isn't how you hoped to be spending the end of your pregnancy! I really hope that the doctors today have some help to offer you and that you can get feeling better soon. Feeling this way is not good at any time, but on top of where you are in your pregnancy?...not cool at all.
ReplyDeletePlease know you are in my thoughts and I'm sending you lots of positive energy. You have gotten through a great deal already, my friend. You'll get through this as well, and then it will all be a memory. None of that changes how hard it is right now, but perhaps it can be a comfort.
Please go right ahead and complain here when you need to! It's YOUR blog afterall. If you can't complain here, where CAN you complain? :) I appreciate hearing your experiences and feelings...even the hard ones. It's also a comfort sometimes to know that I'm not the only one struggling. I may go complain some on my blog too, come to think of it ;)
If you are able, please let us know how it goes with the doctors. If not, just rest and know things will get better. You have a cheering squad out here.