Friday, March 25, 2011
It's official: We're having another boy!
We had our Level 2 scan with the high risk specialist, and all is great so far. Growth is right on track, and he's a very active baby. They did find a "freckle" on his heart, but I've been assured that this is normal and we should not be concerned. Sometimes heart freckles are a marker for Down Syndrome, but in our case, all of our tests came back negative for Down, and in most cases, the freckle will disappear before babies are even born. My gut tells me that this is a very healthy boy.
He's much different in personality and looks than his brother. On the ultrasound, Wyatt showed us his boy parts before he even showed his face. The tech put the wand on my belly, and BAM, there is was, hangin' out there for all to see. Good thing we didn't want it to be a surprise!
Wyatt's new brother is shy. He turned from the wand as it came at him. He crossed his legs for so long and kept his stuff hidden--the tech thought he was a girl at first-- mysterious little guy, I guess. Overall, he is much gentler on my body than Wyatt was--so far at least. I still have at least 16 weeks to go (we are all assuming I will have to deliver early again, as I'm ready to jump off a bridge due to Lyme pain in the third trimester.) My occasional cravings are frozen yogurt, regular yogurt, and fruit. Thank God. With Wyatt I wanted Cheetos, cheese, strawberry milk, and every other junk food you can imagine.
When people say that each pregnancy is different, they're not lying. If you had one terrible Lyme pregnancy in the past, it doesn't mean that it has to be that way again. Time is FLYING, and though my Lyme symptoms are still gaining momentum, I pretty much know what to expect. This time around, I'm able to just sit back and enjoy what is my last pregnancy, even when it's uncomfortable, because I will miss the indescribable feeling of carrying new life.
I feel a slight sense of sadness knowing I will never have a little girl--even as a kid, I'd always just assumed my babies would be female. At least one of them anyway. We are firm believers in not having more children than you can handle or afford. We're pushing our limit at two, though when I think of Wyatt having a little brother so close in age, I can't even dream of having it any other way. I will be surrounded by boys, and the more I envision it, the more I love it.
I feel lucky to have been able to get pregnant in the first place, and as hard as a Lyme pregnancy is for all involved, I will never regret my decision to have my children. As far as I'm concerned, they've made me feel like I'm the healthiest person alive.